Well, I’ve never been much for video games, so I didn’t think it would hold much interest for me. I was wrong. It starts out really easy and you get the hang of moving the little colored shapes around to solve the puzzles. Then it gets harder and harder, with more and more obstacles. There isn’t a tutorial either. When a new obstacle appears, you have to just figure out how to clear it on your own. If you aren’t able to finish the objective with the allotted number of moves, you fail. It doesn’t just say game over either, it has a banner that actually says, you failed.
The last puzzle I lost was the most frustrating yet. I had attempted it multiple times over the past week or so. I was doing really well, clearing the pieces I needed to, using as few moves as possible, I thought I was going to make it. As I came to the last piece to clear, I realized I wasn’t going to have enough points to pass the round! I tried to do some other moves just to gain points, but as the game ended, I didn’t make it. Even though I had cleared the required obstacles, it wasn’t good enough. There was that familiar banner, you failed.
Wow. That hits home on so many levels. That phrase is something we all dread. That result is something we all fear. Doing your best, thinking you’re going to make it, and then finding out it’s still not good enough. So, when it asks if I want to give up or try again, I try again with the same puzzle. I keep trying until I solve the challenge ahead of me. I know a little more about it now, so I can try some different strategies, but most of the success is the luck of how the tiles drop.
Sometimes I feel like my life is just one big game of Candy Crush. I have a brightly colored board that I keep moving pieces around on, some pieces fit, others don’t. Some obstacles are easy to overcome, others are permanent without a way to erase them or clear them completely. The choices we make become the determining factors in success or failure results. Do you want to give up or try again becomes a life long journey. Wanting to get it right, and be good enough, shapes our self image and self worth.
I want to keep progressing in this life-sized Candy Crush game. But not through buying more moves or asking my friends on Facebook to gift me another turn. I want to move through this maze of life by learning from my mistakes and doing it better the next time. I want to see my obstacles for what they are, obstacles. Things to overcome or circumvent. Experiences that make me stronger and shape me into a better person. Not something to stop me cold. My friends are vital to my success, not because they can give me another turn, but because my true friends give me another chance. They have game boards of their own and they know we all fail sometimes.
My biggest comfort comes from knowing that when my final game board is completed, I will be good enough without question. Not because I got the obstacles cleared or because I became a pro at moving the pieces around. I will never have to face that blasted failure notice again, because the game master has already purchased my pass to complete freedom. No matter what I do, no matter how many times I have to try the same challenge over, no matter how many times I see that banner of failure, God still loves me and I will always be good enough through the grace of my Savior Jesus Christ.
“For all have sinned and fallen short of the glory of God, and all are justified freely by His grace through the redemption that came by Christ Jesus.” Romans 3:23-24